ay bay bay.

san francisco for the weekend:)

saturday:

-wrong church

-found it :)

-auntie ana

-avalon

-42nd

-reyes fambam

-liquor store/walgreens

-cake face

-wii

sunday:

-mission climb bouldering, woo V0

-pupusa, spinach/bean&cheese

-auntie ana's

-walk

-nubi

-avalon

-punchline comedy club

-awkward much?

-reggie watts headliner

look what i taught her :)

monday:

-treasure island

-sactown

-nikki's new "digs"

-buca di beppo

-homebound

-2hours behind the wheel

-sidenote*i very much dislike drivers who do not practice road etiquette.ugh.

-shootingstar/inside&out/bigcitybrightlights

now i'm watching the us open w/ marc and carmelita:)

p.s.

after rain, must come sunshine.

buffalo wing cook-off.

for the past six hours, my belly has been filled with everything yummy and fried...with a side of diabetes. and within the next hour, i anticipate my food comma to lull me into a deep sleep. mmm.

rio: winner of traditional buffalo wing

martin: winner of specialty buffalo wing (w/ a curry sauce)

brother: fail.

:) kidding. his honey mustard dressing is "finger-lickin'"

along with the triumphs came the "what the hell happened" moments.

me: "i like this one, rio."

kuya: "you only like it b/c it jiggles."

me: "..true."

martin: "kanne, didn't you know? butter is all that buffalo sauce is."

me: "but martin, that's a whole stick."

martin: "trust."

*10 minutes later...

judges: "it's too oily, greasy..and..buttery! didn't taste much like a buffalo wing."

martin: "we'll rock, paper, siccors."

rio: "no, but they'll know whose wings they are."

kuya: "how can they know depending on who wins?"

me: "if you win, the wings will go out, and they'll know."

kuya: "look what i got, habanero."

kat: "if you put that!..make sure..take..don't."

martin: *writes A B C

me: *draws diving line

me: we need 9 right?

martin: yea, votes are 27

*75 seconds later.

me:"...why are we doing the whole pile?"

martin: "i was just thinking that.."

and then silly me tried making churros..

total flop.

ara and i started with powdered chunks and ended up with some consistency similar to play dough.

i ended up messing around with the mixture. and made a traditional churro alongside a heart, pretzel, and beignet.

i guess not a complete defeat.

martin and raljay seemed to favor the beignets. not so much jarvis. hahah, i could tell he wanted to spit it out.

and then i learned how to play poker for the hundredth time.

..yet i was more interested in color-coordinating the chips and "building castles."

martin: "how do you wake up lady gaga? you poke her face."

so, i was planning to go to buffalo wild wings tomorrow b/c of their 50cent weekly deal.

but i think i've had enough for awhile..

"ain't no thang but a chicken wang" my ass.

:) happy night.

summersault.

i love summer weekdays..not that i can differentiate them in comparison to a fri/sat/sun combo.

you know your summer makes all kinds of happy when you look forward to mondays.

monday:

-danny&sabrina hard at work

-blueberry lemonade smoothie samples

-victoria's secret

-yellow dress

-momma

-picture frames

-stater brothers: oh's

-paint

tuesday:

-steak lunch?

-elizabeth's nasally high pitched voice

-jason patel

-gas up

-lollicup

-allison..aly, paulyna, gav, mia heiba "i have chestne!"

-william vice-president wha?

-change film

-wheat thins

-castle park

-"do i pass for a tall, white blonde?"

-screamin' demon "i got a bruise!" "you're too dark. pointing to an area that looks just like the rest of your skin."

-dragon flyer; shy by just a few inches

-rollercoaster moded

-ufo spinner; body odor, motion sickness, massive gravitational pull>>>epic fail

-dragon's tower; "all i heard was aly screaming words i shouldn't be hearing."

-no-go bumper cars

-sea dragon; gavbffion: **barf, all other riders:"wee! ohh..."

-log ride; jason: "*****!!"

-merlin's revenge

-pass fireball

-screamin' demon;round two

-voicemail "same friends, same leisure activities, same place?"

-note to self: partyopolis is open WTFSS

-married cougar wink

-balboa ferry

-veggie grill; vegan, carne asada gluten, "weggie will"

-fart?

-sticki picki

wednesday:

-chelsea's

-call of duty

-jerkin

-"duvet"

-steven debulgado's :(

-parker's baseball game

-katie prior/arnolds

-justin hoff

-fixie

thursday:

-sangria

-heiba

-josue's; paula, tanner, paulyna

-paella

-"no, you can't help."

-josue: **open, close, open, close

-tanner: reach over and around "tanner, i could have just gotten that for you. no need to pull a josue."

-cups?

-balsamic vinegar? prune juice? proven carbonated w/ sangria stained clothes.

-first batch

-lyna: "here you go."

-siesta

-g'bye tanner and josue

-saran wrap macbook

-hanging boxer-briefs via ceiling fan

-blackjack

-tanner's closet bathroom

-ohana's "shark dissection?"

-pick up,drop off

-painting party!!

-danny

-crepe party!!

-game of things party!!

-project runway party!!

friday:

-dentist appt.

-surprise surpise

-clean&tivo

-malou&vanilla>>btch fight

-danny, paulyna

-officer potluck:)

-SAM!!

-elizabeth: nasally>>"dear jesus" :)**snort

-reunited and it feels so good

-"hi beth!"

-ate home :)

-scattergories

-blondie on the table

-kaiser w/ the siblings and momma

-mrhotstuff@aol.com

-heiba, paulyna, jason, aly

-jeans

-videos; "oh!"

-salmon; aly: i just drank the infested mold! i'm going to sue target.

-wii

best friend by default.

to be honest, i didn't understand why i was crying after hanging up.

i always told you to "go away" and that you're only my "best friend by default."

but after that call...i became fully aware of the friendship we have...of the friend you have been to me.

over the years, i've lost friend after friend. down to only a handful. then there was you. someone who wasn't necessarily my best friend. yet someone who was always there, and not because you had an identical agenda to match mine, but because you were just a good person who cared. hahaha. who would have thought the day would come when i would admit that you are a good person. :)

there would be days when i'd be distant, hurt, not okay. and just when i thought no one else noticed, there you were. asking me what was wrong. at the time i wasn't sure if you asked me because you were genuinely concerned, or because you were upset that i wasn't in the mood to tease you back, or to laugh at your lame attempt of a joke. but as time elapsed, as we learned to open up and share, as our friendship progressed and grew...i knew. i knew you cared about me. and that i cared about you.

i have to say...whatever kind of friendship we have, considering our violent verbal attacks contrary to our weighty venting parties, i truly value the relationship we've formed.

i know that we are not nearly as close to each other in comparison to the other relationships you hold, but please know how much i prize the friendship we do have.

you are bound for a future overflowing with success and bliss. i know it. i've already witnessed what you can do. with that God-given talent escorted by determination and stubbornness, there is nothing you cannot do.

so as much as it hurts me to say g'bye, i wish you only the best in what lies ahead of you.

2,059 miles won't change anything.

in one year, i've made a new best friend.

to make up for the ones i've lost and then some.

in the years to come, i plan for our once-forced friendship to advance with all kinds of happy, to leave behind the "best friend by default" and develop a friendship i choose to retain.

i love you, man. call me when you land.

tears.

..make them stop.

bff...f

pray for my friend.

..that's it.

thanks.

alskdjoo

:):)

asahi.

my brother invited me to dinner w/ him and his friends :)

they're the "feel-good" kind of people.

intentions: boiling crab

actuality: asahi sushi

mmm.all you can eat sushi.yum num numm.

kuya: "so are we still going to boiling crab?"

kat: "i don't know what the plan is. they won't make up their minds."

kuya: "let's just go to their house."

kat: "i hate those damn guiterrez"

marvin: "you got the dark one, the one w/ a progressing voice, and the one that sounds like a dying accordion."

martin: "look up 'where the little things grow'..it's magical!"

marvin&rio: "justin, try some brownies!! *stare and giggle*"

me: "why are you guys laughing?"

rio: "b/c we put jalapeno powder in it."

marvin: "it tastes good that way. it's like spicy chocolate."

me: "so it wasn't supposed to be a practical joke?"

rio: "no, we just like it better that way."

rio: "he has a license to kill."

kuya: "there's an actual permit for that?"

marvin: "if you have a certain belt, they indicate that on your license. so it is felony if you get in a fight."

kuya: "b/c it's an unfair match?"

marvin: "yea..b/c you're a weapon now."

martin: "did you see the meteor shower last night? it's like..the meteor was bouncing off of the atmosphere.like a rock skipping on water. and we're the ocean."

kuya: "so you're saying we're the fish?"

martin: "yea! and the houses are the reef. and we're breathing oxygen!"

kuya: "*turns to marvin*are you getting this?"

marvin: "yeaa"

kuya: "so the earth is underwater life..and we're looking up at skipping rocks? who is throwing the rocks?"

martin: "God!"

ara: "good analysis!"

rio: "analogy?"

martin: "man, how am i supposed to paint the window shutters all the way up there?"

raljay: "why do you have to paint them?"

martin: "oh, b/c my parent asked me to do it.."

kuya: "oh really, parent? i didn't know you only had one parent."

marvin: "so i wrote sam a card that said: sison's greetings!"

kat: "hahah, b/c her last name is sison"

kuya: "but the funny thing is, she actually says it that way."

me: "oh, i didn't know that was her last name..i thought it was just b/c she's fob."

things i want to do after todays' conversations:

-stand up sundays

-buffalo wing competition

-raging waters

-attempt to stop the gas tank at an exact .00 (or in this case, 13.10)

-get a pet tarantula...not

-quail egg shot...not

-magic castle

-boogie boarding

-25$ hair cut by ara at hairajuku

-kogi taco truck

-sample sale in santa ana. note to self: "teens of july and december"

thank you, kuya. for inviting me. driving me. paying for me. making me laugh. and for the talk on the way home. :)

tawny alipoon.

my friend and astounding photographer, tawny alipoon, and i spent an afternoon driving around aimlessly for deserted, "ghetto" laundromats.

too much fun:)

i've never been so overly-satisfied with a photo shoot.

and i can't thank her enough.

take a look at her other work. i know my face and poor modeling skills may not be convincing and doesn't quite give her justice, so check out tawnyalipoon.com and be amazed.

:):)

alfresco.

after spending 3.5 days confined in the comforts of my overly-pillowed bed complete with ice packs, vicodin, chap stick, gauze and a heating pad, i finally reacquainted myself with the outside world.

saturday:

-breakfast made with love

-church

-claim jumper

-LA

-griffith park observatory

-ikea

i spent the entire day with marc & carmelita.

just us three.

and i have to say, i loved every minute of it.

i found myself laughing and smiling as big as my mouth allowed.

i genuinely enjoyed their presence.

i realize, i took my time with them for granted.

now i'm seeking for every little spare moment i can get with them.

i'm finding it very difficult to fathom how much i will truly miss them come september.

i haven't been hit yet.

and am not looking forward to the day when i am slapped across the face with a "your parents are 486 miles away, little girl."

sunday:

-vegg'd

-target

-costco

-:)

-elizabeth's house

-empire bowl

-friend

the parentals and i continued our shopping expedition in the pursuit of creating the perfect dorm room.

i was able to check off my entire list.

...almost.

still searching for the most quintessential rice cooker.

i take my rice very seriously.

elizabeth's birthday party was a good time.

saw faces i've missed for so long, too long.

and i even managed to chew a soft pizza.

and and and!! i bowled a turkey.

3 strikes in a row. yee :)

...only to come out to a 76.

apparently i was sucky McSuck suck until the last 3 frames.

...and just a few minutes ago, i caught up with an old friend.

whom i have really missed.

laughed.shared.listened.

stargazed on the driveway..just talking, chillin..like how it used to be.

thank you bff...f

it was good to finally get out.

& so good to spend it with people i love.

:B)

my physical status for the past 3 days.

:[

i had my "sh*t-day" of the week.

..not becuase i had 4 teeth removed & currently feel an incessant dull pain in my tennisball-sized cheeks..

but because i..

he..

why did..

ah.

..i can't even talk about it.

hurts too much.

again, not b/c of the physical pain inflicted in my already aching mouth when i try to speak..that, i can handle.

..but because my heart was fooled with the words, "i will never hurt you again."

color me happy.

so look what came in the mail today :)

has to be the sickest keyboard protector known to man. notice the photoshop shortcut tools on the keys. i am in love.

attempt#1093852764

i've decided to document my life.

my thoughts/feelings/experiences/aspirations/questions.

cheers to attempt#1093852764.

a collection of diaries and journals remain unfinished..with more blank pages than of those marked with ink.

i wonder how long this one will last.

:)