fusion.

friday:

• banana + odwalla mango + gavion - mikee + mt. view = breakfast
• advisor meeting w/ aubyn fulton
• psychology major, art minor
• pack pack pack
• load onto bus 7
• "okay, i'm going to build a bridge.."
• victor: "i found my roommate through facebook" eric: "yea, he called the dean and everything asking to be paired up w/ me b/c we were fb friends" koot/kote: "chicken adobo" michael: "pansit"
• cabin 14
• front row smile :)
• rec park
• bball courts
• extreme dodgeball
• tether ball
• treehouse playground
• skatepark cartwheels
• tire swing "awkward..." piggie front
• "i wouldn't drink that water..it looks gross." **splat!! all over my face/hair
• "kris" two headed turn
• fusion: "oops, i did it again.."
• british accent "that is repulsive! appauling! obsurd!"
• pirate accent "argh, got me parrot on me shol dur"
• southern accent "darcie girl" "...my grandpa calls me that"
• fob accent ..we suck at this one
• emo accent "i'm so excited.." "oh look, there's a squirrel"
• bending over like a gma holding coffee

saturday:

• roy ice is thumbs up
• bible treasure hunt
• "we should go up there!"
• "zipline it is!"
• berry picking
• golf cart pack
• "did anyone see "there's something about mary?...no? cool."
• ziplining
• rockclimbing
• battle of the sexes
• "i have a question about ______." "??" "!!!"
• square dancing
• bouncing up and down.
• hand fart. LOL.
• afterglow
• thanks for walking me.

sunday:

• pack everything onto carrie's!
• bus ride games
• welcome back kansas bbq
• ripped shorts..twice
• moonbounce boulder
• follow the leader what?
• amphitheater love.
• sleep early, it's the first day of college, dear.

"i have nuts!!"

i made a handful of new friends today. hahah

i'm trying to get out of my comfort zone.

kind of hard when you got lla everywhere you look.

however, i had some pretty good laughs today:

• walking on opposite sides
• tripping on cracks and branches
• reflections
• "oh, HI!"
• falling off high beds
• pulling grapes off their vine
• "i'm hungry again."
• sniff sniff
• "i'm not wearing a bra!"
• "you art students?" "yea!" "wait..no"
• "i have nuts!!"
• "you're not going to snort are you? like..in front of pple we're going to meet?"
• tap tap tap :( hahaha
• catching breaths simultaneously
• "the photo is not that bad"
• random foot stepping dude & small talk
• seaweed
• "..do we have friends?"
• funnybook interest list
• en vogue
• "GRANDMA!"
• "it sounds like you're giving birth.."

current thoughts:

• i wish i could have shared those laughs with you...
• anxious/nervous/excited for school to start.17 credits.2 being ceramics :):)
• tropic thunder/Jesus: "why can't everybody just love everybody?"
• my roommate is a snorer.
• i miss you you you and you..and vanilla. perhaps malou on a good day.

hello hello puc.

monday:

• g'bye lunch @ angelos.
• thank you to: erika/max/charlotte/justin/danny/josue/heiba/paulyna/chelsea/mandy/ sabrina/jason/elizabeth/paula/veronica/parker/mikee/jr/bernard/myssa for coming out. love and miss you all.
• departure 6:35 arrival 7:50
• avalon fail
• crazy bread
• san jose
• "pedoffler" "pedo bear" "stay away from him!"
• ftw pictures
• #00 best friend
• 4:30 am
• "i hit my rib on that corner"
• vegetarian meat/mystery meat; jack in the crack

tuesday:

• 8:30 am. swish swish
• ate karen
• puc w/ raquel, auntie vel, and kare
• unpack, thank you richard fenn
• sf
• fog-mania
• dim sum king
• joyce
• pictures
• avalon
• jhanapin's
• nick and norah

wednesday:

• 8am wake up call.
• puc, f'real w/ joyce
• "what other bin?"
• gather/disperse
• hi hi hi
• advisor(s)
• grapes
• orientation
• afterglow
• "DARcie" "i don't want to see him" "AUHMbyr"
• talk talk w/ britney

tonight is my first night in the dorm :)

good night world.

ONT>OAK.

so i'm all packed.

starting to become real.

to many, there is not much difference in what i'm about to encounter.

to few, and to myself, it's sized up to be a heavy change.

..i don't even know how to do laundry.

my [yester]day:

• good noon dars
• pack; 3/2/1 suitcase/box/bag + longboard
• mikee, paulyna
• miguel's
• daniel, leanne
• sick, nasty 'world's largest zit'
• 'will you marry me?' & '$500,000 half court sike'
• justin powell
• jerry slater
• garrett lui
• ichat; greetings from athens.

my [to]day:

• angelos noon, see you there :)
• 6:30 ONT>OAK

a family that prays together...

i remember those saturdays when my parents would say: "no anne-anne, you cannot sit with your friends. we are all sitting together, as a family."

then i would think to myself: "what is the point? it doesn't make any difference..i'm still at church aren't i? it's not like we are going to talk to each other or anything. it's just people sitting. where's the importance in that? i don't even want to be with my family. i already spend time with them at home."

i went to church today..alone.

i would have traded anything in the world to have my family by my side.

it took me all these years to understand what my parents meant.

threshold.

i don't think i've ever laughed so much rock climbing

i'm usually too frustrated to find humor in my pathetic attempts to boulder.

although i wasn't a complete fail. i did a couple V0s...okay, maybe that is fail status.

eh, i don't care. i still had fun.

me: try to put your right hand on that shark.

dars: and then match up on the dolphin.

josue: none of these holds look like either of those things

dars: i think we're just hungry..

me: for sharks and dolphins??

josue: **staring out into space for a solid 20 seconds

me: what are you looking at..there's nothing over there

dars: good comeback

"this is my favorite part."

josue: look at his back.

me: stop checking him out!

josue: i'm not!.....it's like you could see every muscle..

dars: reach for that green one

me: **dart arm out vivaciously

**crunch crunch on an apple

dars: he's like a monkey

josue: **dangling legs

me: maybe if i drive fast enough, we could get on tv.

darcie's brother's friends: "ohhh!!" "reach for the banana!" "damn, if i had a sister who could do that.."

josue: i want to see district nine

me: i heard that was stupid!

dars: i want to see nine. just nine.

me: what is that about?

dars: it's about life after life

me: that sounds stupid too.

dars: rigby looks intense.

josue: you mean rugby?

josue&katrina not using color coded holds.

ahahah sumo status.

dars: jay, show your belly.

jay: **3 month baby bump

wish i could go to formal night. have fun josue! and please, complete the yellow V2. and the arch. :)
oh, and i hope your eyes gets better darcie. you apply that ointment! :)




..on a not so happy note, tonight is my last night w/ my parents.
they're leaving early morning for a eurotrip with my sister & danny.
happy for them, i'm sure. but i'm just not ready to say bye...
i don't know when i'll see them next. sometime in late october, hopefully..if not, thanksgiving is not too long from now. right? ...no.
i couldn't help but i cry today.

going to bed. waking up at 4 to take the two people i love the most to LAX. where i'll be forced to say g'bye.

September 11, 2001. "we will never forget."

LLL

what boys have taught me:

• i don't need a boy
• communication is key
• leading on is not key
• that other girl exists
• boys and books, do not mix
• bros, before hoes

and my most recent lesson:

• dishonesty hurts, be faithful and true

listen, learn, live kristianne.

oh, and thank you to "mah gurlfrynd" for a day of YESman, venting, & starbuckscoffeeicecream

"STOP.*pause*WHAT ARE YOU DOING??RUN!*oh!thank you."

< / 3

word to the wise..or just a foolish, little girl who won't learn her lesson:

guard your heart.

trikk.

since you're the only one who reads this [(HA Ha ha) do you remember that??], thanks for coming over today.

it was nice to catch up after all this time. i'm actually looking forward to puc now..kinda.

hah, you know why.

see you friday! ..maybe even tomorrow if we're feeling healthy.

hahaha, in stater brothers..trying to lift the bag of ice. fail!

"oh, and **** got pretty....fat." LOL

i'm gonna try to be like you and go to bed before midnight.

good night world!

0 missed calls.

...i guess, i'm not worth the fight.

4:05 AM

shuteye, impossible.

incredible how yesterday could be perfect. so perfect, i fell asleep smiling.

incredible how today could be complete opposite, hell.

today was...

so "..." it leftover'd onto my tomorrow.

it's going to be like this for awhile, huh.

no more perfect days.

no more smiles.

fuel on empty.

had every intention to come find you, help you.

..then my car would not start. dead battery.

sorry you had to go through that.

i would have been there for you.

no matter how much you think i wouldn't.

rave daddy.

i will never be okay with it..sorry.

cold urticaria.

so, i am allergic to the cold. hah

it's called urticaria.

"As strange as it sounds, it is possible to have an allergy to cold temperatures. Doctors refer to this as cold hives (urticaria).

In some people, skin exposure to cold temperatures triggers the release of histamine and other chemicals into the skin. This results in skin redness, itching, swelling and hives. Although symptoms may begin during the cold exposure, they're often worse during rewarming of the exposed skin.

The cause of cold urticaria isn't clear. But certain people appear to have overly sensitive histamine-containing skin cells.

As much as possible, people with cold urticaria should avoid exposure to cold air as well as cold water. For example, swimming in cold water is the most common cause of a severe, whole-body reaction — leading to fainting, shock and even death."

true, i am self-diagnosed. but i have my reasons.

it started out with cold beverages. my hands would redden and itch after a mere 2 minutes. discomfort i could tolerate.

yet not so much when it's a full body reaction. what was supposed to be a happy day of boogie boarding in laguna beach, turned out be a frightening scare to myself and my friends with me. 15 minutes into the water, i was red/itchy/burning from head to toe. got out, dried off with a towel, and noticed inflated bumps (hives) across my thighs, stomach, and arms. My skin was wrinkly and elizabeth said it resembled the hide of a rhinoceros. my entire body swelled up like a balloon. the rings on my fingers wouldn't slide off and i could barely move my toes.i couldn't stop shaking, but i forced myself to get up and walk back toward the car. took 4 steps and fell to my knees. looked up, and my vision was impaired. black and splotchy, like what you get when you rub your eyes too long and too hard, but this time, they didn't disappear. didn't clear up. my head was pounding. all i wanted to do was lie down. but even that didn't ease the pain. fainting would have been a breeze. that way i'd be unconscious of my physical state.

i thought it was the water. allergic to sea salt? seaweed?

but then just last week, i went swimming in my own pool. a place i spent almost everyday in, last summer. 7 minutes in the pool. same reaction. maybe not as severe, but i still became swollen. i still broke out in hives. itchy/burning sensation. mild headache.

when i drive and the air conditioning is directed toward my face, my ears and neck begin to itch. i turn it off, more willing to sweat than deal with the prickling irritation.

when i eat too much ice cream or drink too much cold water at once, my throat gets itchy.

researches say this condition develops between the ages of 18-25

...awesome.

puc, here i come.

.

just another girl.

answer me this.

why is it that i am the cause, the source to all of this...mess?

why is it that you won't take responsibility for the mass confusion that tumbled in my head?

why is that you said, "i'm finding myself wanting to spend more time with you." & "i'm starting to have feelings for you."

why is it that the words, "i lahhhh girls!" & "i want to be single forever!" & "so i talked to this girl the other day..." come out of the same mouth just hours after?

why is it that you lied when you said it was over between the two of you?

why is it okay for you to do this? to lead me on?

why is it that when i behave just as lightly, i'm considered a beezy?

this doesn't excuse my actions. i know.

what i did was wrong..stupid.

and i am deeply sorry.

yet these were the thoughts playing through my mind, on loop.

you made me feel like "just another girl."